They say “we all have an old knot in the heart we wish to untie” , question is whether we have the courage to untie the knot. 5 years back , when there was a chance , instead of taking it as a golden opportunity , I merely blew it away with the wind , thinking life would never give me another.But that’s the beauty of life.The bubble of illusion gets a pinch at any point of time.
The mere thoughts of a stoned heart got thrashed away with hammering of most powerful element called love and the strong foundation I thought , sat beneath me, shattered.
The masking of being okay in current scenario is just tuning the rage towards some one else on me.Why..why …why…why cant I get you out of my head…or should I say throw you out of my mind. They told me “Time is the best healer” but what they didn’t mention is the slowness of this healing process which continues to go around in circles in my head.
There is no fix , no cure ,only left to suffer and bear the pain , which reminds me that you heal only by getting habituated dwelling within this intensity and one day you realize this has become an integral part of your soul.
I don’t know when , how , where , I will be able to survive..I will be able to breathe without my heart aching sigh but this painful walking is testament to the love I am carrying into my heart for you still like the older days…or ….may be more..